And six months later…


Well hello everyone! I know it’s been a while since I promised a reflection post on a Sunday that never came…until today!e…until today!

And what happened today to get me writing? First a WhatsApp message urging me to write for once and for all, and second! Today I make six months in Freepik, six months working, six months in which my life has given a big turn and well I suppose then that it’s a good moment to get the head rolling again about life. So let’s get to it.

Well I suppose that the first subject to treat is work, after all this is like an anniversary post.

So…work, was it like I thought it would be? I have no idea, because when I come to think of it: I actually never had an idea of what work would be about! It’s true I expected certain things, or maybe not, sometimes it’s difficult to isolate thought from the past and the present.

I  wish not to disappoint you because of the fact that there are certain things I don’t want to bring out to the internet because I’m bound not only by my father but mainly by myself and my wish to be a great professional (right now I’m falling asleep and I want to eat crepes filled with dulce de leche) . I’ll do my best. Obviously depending on who you are if you ask me when you see me I wouldn’t mind telling you.

Well the thing is I like to work and I like the idea of what I do on Freepik, of course there are days and tasks more interesting than others but that’s life and you have to deal with it weather you like it or not. For example: I totally hate translation days. I was born with the ability of translation but not with the taste for it, and I must say that those days are long and boring. But on the other hand I really like dubbing for example, or the idea of creating tutorials (I say the idea because I find myself with unnecessary restrictions that hold me back so much that something I could love and enjoy I end up feeling totally unattached to it and just want to finish as soon as possible, but! What normally would take me a couple of hours, takes me three days. So when I’m asked “Is there something else you rather be doing in Freepik?” the answer is “No, I’d simply do things different” I wish that my passion for my work wasn’t constantly shut off. Sometimes I wonder how I keep a up a cheerful and positive attitude… And because of the previous paragraph I have to bite my tongue (my fingers in this case) and stop about what “I don’t like”, so let’s to about what I like and other things!

Well I really like my “Fishbowl partners” (When I entered Freepik, three other girls came in with me and they put us in a crystal room the called the “Fishbowl”) and we totally connected from the beginning and it was the first time since I lived in Malaga (18 years now) that I felt totally “welcomed”, like if I were one more (That had only happened in Madrid when I went there to study), and I think it’s really cool. They are four equally strange, in their way, ladies which you can share your most bizarre and ridiculous ideas and thoughts.

Also since I work (and have Cash, cash, money, money…) I’ve been able to go out a lot more, like in the old days (a.k.a Madrid), and I’ve met tons of new people (you know I have a something for strangers), meet new places (In and out of Malaga) and buy yards and yards of fabric (my briefs collection is increasing monthly) (Part of the fault is that I’ve discovered a haberdashery that sells a lot of elastic laces and trimmings)…so basically thanks to money (Cash, cash, money, money…) I get to do whatever I want without having to care much of the expense.

And what are those things I’ve been (and will be) up to? Well for example, I went to Rome! Never been to Italy (I think I already talked about that voyage, so I won’t go over it again), I enrolled another (yes, another) lingerie class, I’m going to salsa class, in a couple of months I’m running a Spartan Race, I’ve increased my shoe collection (sorry dad), this summer I’m going to spend a whole week in France (hopefully getting a new job) and another week in Galicia (learning to surf), I wish to go to the Schoolism Workshop in London… and a lot of things more that will come in the way. Man this post is not my best work folks, I guess today I’m not in my deepest mood…

I suppose I have a lot more to say, but I feel like today might not be the day, I tried my best but I’m too full of energy (and I don’t know why because I can only eat chicken and swiss chards) (I’m on a stupid detox diet because of an allergy caused by medicine…). I guess what I would like to say with this messy and sense less post is that I’m really grateful, for the life I’m living, ok that I’m very far from where I would really like be working, and who knows if it might be years until I get to work on my first film, or I actually might never work on a film, that’s what I would love to, but does that mean I failed live? No, I suppose not, maybe I will have to spend my morning translating other peoples work in the morning for a living and drawing backgrounds for pleasure in the afternoon as long as I do my best in both activities and enjoy of what I have around everything will be more than fine. I know they will be days in which I’ll hate all my friends that are working in movies (which happens already) (I even have a friend working on Pocoyo! Is there justice in the world? Clearly not) and think “mann why didn’t I make it??”, luck? Talent? Lack of contacts? They are hundreds of ways of life beating us around, but since my experience, if don’t expect anything (I don’t mean you don’t have hope. Hope must always be present), work hard giving your best and not looking to the others castles you can have an awesome life. Why does a person working on Disney has to be happier and more successful that the woman who works beneath my house waxing other peoples legs?? Why? and some of you might be thinking…really? Well yes, I really think so. There are tons of people in the world and only a few work on “Top places” (if those even exist) and that does mean that they are more happy and successful than the rest of the world? Sorry but no, I don’t believe that, and if you think that I think you have a very mediocre thinking, AND THIS IS A BLOG THAT WISHES TO FIGHT MEDIOCRESY! (I’ve just received a mail totally unexpected…the content was “good” but it has totally ruined my day and I’m feeling how my face is getting all covered by a rash) (I’ve lost were I was going! Stupid Spa! Always messing around since the first day I met you…).

Well since I totally loosed track and the urge of getting back to my backgrounds let’s make a quick ending:

-If you are not were you want to be: Work hard and stop the excuses

-Be happy and in peace wherever you are but that doesn’t mean you don’t have to improve. You have the OBLIGATION of improving!

-I hope you don’t hate me, I’ll try to appear more often.

-I love you people

-Until the next post!  (Or not)

No idea on how to title this

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Hi everyone! It`s been waaay to long since my last post! I know and I`m sorry! But I’ve always had the blog in mind (pinky swear), but I haven`t had time to sit down and write. I`ve also been thinking I want give a twist on the blog, no that I have a job I don`t really need a blog in which to cry about that I don`t have a job so we need a new subject!

I`ve decide I`m going to post about whatever a want, and when I say whatever I mean WHATEVER. What I want to say is that I have my art sites were I show my art and very few sights of other things… but sometimes I would like to post about other things that are important for me (like sewing for example) and I don`t post about it because by the moment I intend to make a living of my art and not my sewing (maybe in a (not) near future that might change) (One never knows)

So here I suppose I`ll post about my sewing projects, my salsa classes, my trips, music and a big list of themes that will come along, the thing is I don’t really want to abandon this (I know someone who would kill me if I did).

So for this comeback post I think I should tell you a bit about what I’ve been up to lately!

Well as I said in one of the last post, I got a job at Freepik (number one on free graphic resources) five months ago, and I must say that generally I like it.

Of course it has its swings and roundabouts, but in general terms I like it. I feel really comfortable with the people I have around in the office and I also have the opportunity of doing a different thing every day.

I work in the tutorial department, and my main commitment is to create tutorials for the blog. But! We also have extern artist making tutorials, and if the come in Spanish, for example, I have to translate them and dub them, I also have to add headers to the videos, write intros, and fix other stuff, so as you see, I have a wide variety of tasks to develop. The only complain I could have is that my department is really small…we are only two. Which means that I am the only working bloke and I have to manage everything by myself without any help (the other department member is the Art director, a.k.a the Boss).

But well on the other hand I’m making really good friends, having fun and being useful to humanity, that it’s basically one of the things I wanted. Oh! And the company is also paying me a dubbing course, which is something really awesome, I’ve only had one class, son I don’t have much to tell, but I suppose I will in the future.

I’m also going to salsa class! I loooooooooove to dance and now that I work, I can afford it (Money might not make you happy, but God knows it helps A LOT) So yeah, there I am banging my feet every Friday! At the begging I was horribly stiff and without a hint of caribeñismo.

It’s been two months already since I’ve started and I not saying I am Vanessa Williams at Dance with me (even thought my friend Lorena says my dance videos, resemble to the movie…I wish) (that is a good friend) but I’ve improved quite a lot, I still have to work out my caribeñismo, but I’m way less stiff that at the begging. I`ll probably talk about this way more in the future, because I have a couple of anecdotes to tell and if you are lucky enough I might even share a class video 😉

What else…let’s see umm, Oh I know! Have you seen Stranger Things?? BEST TV SHOW EVER, man! I`ve love it so much that I would watch it over and over again. On the other hand I’m giving Game of Thrones a chance… and I must say that it’s the most boring tv show ever… let`s move to another topic.

Last week I went to Rome! Yayyyy traveling!! I went with some college friends and other people (we were 9, it wasn’t as crazy as it could have been). I really enjoyed the experience, I must say that I had the sensation that I was in Spain most of the time. First of all because the streets resembled to my beloved Madrid (Come on, the Trastevere is Malasaña but with smaller bars) and also, people there don’t want you to speak in English with them, they prefer you to speak Spanish and they respond in Italian, and it’s totally as if you were talking the same language (actually it’s easier than understanding certain Spaniards…).

Well if I have to choose something from that trip (remember this is just a compilation, for more updates, wait for another post that could not come) (Don’t hate me) it would definitely be the San Peter basilica. There are no words to describe that place, how could men construct such wonder? With the help of God, I cannot find any other explanation! I consider myself a difficult crier but I confess I CRIED of emotion, so imagine the magnificent of the place, I sadly couldn’t stay as much as I’ve wished.

And another thing that caught my attention was the Coliseum complex guys have at night clubs, and I don’t mean they get all encouraged-gladiator mode trying to impress you with its strength or something like that, no… what I mean is that they see a group of girls having fun dancing in a circle, and the only thing the come up with is to surround that group of ladies, creating a layer as is they were the Coliseum. And I also must say that you tell them to leave, and they DON’T! That’s a problem I’ve never had here in Spain, Olé los zagales españoles!

Ok ,next topic: Inktober

This time I was really committed, I even made my own sketchbook specially for the occasion, and I did quite well! Until I went to Rome…It’s the year I’ve gone more far away, but failed in the end… But I must say I intend to finish the project, because the topic and the result was coming out cool. I was drawing places I would like to visit some time, so you know.

And well the end of the post is coming, and it’s Friday, this post is not going to be complete without a song, because you know what happens on Fridays… MARIA’S MUSICAL FRIDAYS! It`s not goin to be MMF post, so I’m just sharing with you a song (but what a song). With you! Dreams by Tessa Violet! (My summer so relates to this song)

Well I’m a bit tired of writing this post (sounds like the good old days) (I must confess I’ve been writing this post in office hours, each time I had some empty minutes and it’s taken me 3 days, too much for my body).

So I going to try (Do or not do there is no try, Yoda) to be more regular on my writing, I don’t promise anything! But I’ll do my best!

Until next post! (or not)

If Marilyn knew!

zapatos copia.jpg“Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the world.” Marilyn Monroe

So, you know that sensation when you have been studying for very very long, you make the exam, write down all you know and after fell super relieved and like you don’t want to do anything else? well that’s a bit what happened to me last Monday (remeber I was waiting for a Freepik call?) and that’s why I kicked in the butt my promise of writing on Monday and went out to buy a new pair of red shoes.

Let’s go step by step:
-What was the call about?:
You are not going to believe (because it took me awhile to believe it myself) BUT! chan chan chan I FINALLY GOT A REAL JOB! you know? In a super cool office (In the first picture, the “where things happen” that’s going to be my office) (yes the one with the hammocks) (the are putting in a whole new computer, desk and recording equipment at this moment) , whith a salary, a timetable, WORK MATES… man! when I got off the phone with the lady I totally burst in to tears, I could not believe it, so much effort, this whole year suffering and fighting and I made! By myself! I had assumed that I wouldn’t get a job without someones help, but I DID, and that makes me super proud and also makes me happy thinking that this can give you hope if you don`t have contacts (don’t get me wrong, most people I know who got in with the help of a contact deserved it, and I’ll help who needs it if I can, but come on! achieving those things by yourself?! That’s too awesome)

-Why shoes?
Why not? First of all I love shoes, second I needed a new pair for my new JOB (wow this is never going to get old) and third once in a while a gal needs a treat (and come on people! I totally earne it)

And what now? Well I start in a week (Monday 20th) I’m going to give the best that I can and a bit more, of course I’ll keep trying to get into cinema business (that’s what I studied for) and I’ll keep working as a hostess once in a while (you know “me va la marcha”) but only on the ones that are compatible with my real job and the ones I like (like last week) (goodbye black suits and ponytails).
I would like to make a vkspdl drksrwr and maybe a vjdpl drksrwr (I prefer to keep it secret in case I don’t feel like doing it) about my working experience.

And meanwhile I keep flirting with the video world, playing around and I’m starting to be very in to it so I recorded the process of my latest background for you to see and maybe get inspired! Enjoy!

Byt he way! what I’m going to do in Freepik is work hand by hand with the Art Director on all the tutorial stuff, recruting, editing, dubbing all the videos (as my dad says I’m going to be known as “The Freepik voice”), working on the blog… in the future I’ll probably do graphic resources, but by the moment just tutorial (which if I have to be sincere I prefer by know). And so that is all for today, I’ll keep updating about the “Freepik world” and you know waht comes next!
Until next post! (or not)

I’m alive

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So hello people! With this horrible interpretation of a Saul Bass poster I shout to you that I’M ALIVE!

So I know it’s been A LOT since the last time I wrote around here, don’t even remember! wait a sec, and let me check the date… HOLY GUACAMOLE April 17th! almost two months! Man what a bad host I am! But people! I’ve been so occupied lately! I’ll try to keep up this thing more often so I don’t have to write gigantic post!

(A little aside comment before going into the real subject. I’ve been over reading the blog and man! This thing is quite interesting! No wonder so of you desperately call for more!)

So let’s pick up where we left it, which is at the EAACI congress. Ok so after that I want to spend a week to the Canary Islands with my good old friend Naomi. We went for an Animation Festival “Animayo” which was a really revealing and embracing experience, man! all the speakers where soooo passionate, interesting and so generous with their experiences and livings, I came bakt to Malaga with the batteries fully charged and so motivated with hundreds of ideas. It’s been a really mind changing/opening. I hope that whatever you are into (animation, medicine…) you get the chance to come across with this type of people. That week I also took care (or so I hope) of some other things I have going around which I’m not going to talk here, who has to know it, knows it (y lo sabes) (Hulia and co.).

Ok, after that I got a call from one of the hostess agencies I’m in for a 6 day promotion (3 days/2 weeks) which was terribly boring, long and pointless, but well good money came in with it (and a very cool mug) (bacause I was promoting cups from a bank) (as you know I always get the most weird jobs), actually there isn’t much to tell about this (and a bit also because it goes in conflict to my purpose “don’t speak bad of people” and well, no comments) (If you ask me in person I’ll totally tell you).

And so we get in this week! The week I finally get a hostess job that is actually interesting and non-boring!!! I was called (just for an afternoon) to be a “Beer tasting assistant”, and no, I wasn´t called to taste beers, I just served the different beers, open bottles, and throw away glasses… basically like being a waitress, yaehhhhhh all this crying about bartendering and stuff payed of! I learned a couple of things about beer, I had a nice looking partner (a bit dumb, but good looking). When we finished and cleaned everything we got to take some beer home and everything really entertaining.

So as you see things are coming in to place finally! BUT! There is more! yes people THE NEWS *drum roll* I FINALLY REALLY GOT A JOB RELATED WITH ART. I actually don’t believe it yet, and it’s been a month already.

Of course it’s not a normal job (it’s in a graphic design studio) and what I do is video tutorials for their blog. This week came out the first one and it seems it works quite well.
I suppose you expect something very long about it but they told me the other day that the head of Mrketing is going to call me with good news (they told me this on Friday, and have no clue what it could be about…son imagine my nerves…) well I’m going tho save all the artistic job thing for a new post tomorrow (In the hope of having something new and exciting to tell). So you will have to wait until tomorrow, sorry! and my grandparents have just arived and I have to tell them all about the job and stuff son I sadly have to abandon you for today! But I’ll be good and leave you the link yo my first video 😉 (you know, give it a thumbs up)

Until next post! (or not)

Work hard!…In a real direction

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Hey People! (and welcome to me muffin friend who I didn’t know read this (yay another woman to the ranks!)) I have a question for all of you:
How do you keep reading this pile of mumbling of continuous crying and constant deception? I really admire (and thank) you.
Well it has reached my eyes that some of my dearest readers where left quite worried because of my las post and I came to assure you people! I am recovered (now you might think I live on and emotional roller coaster, that changes really fast, well I have been like that but I think that I’m settling down, nothing like confronting and embracing reality) (you might still think that parting from my last week state I couldn’t possibly be recovered I must tell you I’m emotionally easily recovered, really easy).

It also helps that spring is coming, I’m also a summer lover, so I can go to the beach, my tan has started going on, I might not be going to Annecy but instead I’m going to the Canary Islands with my best friend, I’m goin to publish in a fanzine… so we might say things are starting to come out.
So in this new “stage” I bring out all my skills and I design patterns, I sew custom prom and wedding dresses, I’m not afraid of freelancing and I’ve opened a Society6 shop! (This is probably the best page on all the internet! YOU CAN GET SHOWER CURTAINS WITH MY DESIGNS ON THEM) (ISN’T THAT AMAZING?????) (Even I would buy them, despite I hate shower curtains))

The last post was so depressing (But true) and I remember writing in in a “hangover” mode so I’m not really sure what I wrote and I’ve been willing to delete it, but I’ve been to busy doing more interesting things, so when I finish this one I’m going to modify it, because they are some things I really don’t need know running around the internet, and as Edna Mode would say: “I try to not look in to the past, it distracts me from the future”. And some of those things kinda distract me so I don’t want them there, if you read it, yay you! if not, sorry you are late! jajajajaj
So know I go back to work! Thanks for being there and you know!
Until next post! (or not)

PS: Remember how last post I complained because of the fact that that I was stuck in 99 followers on FB? I GOT TO THE 100! If it has been one of you thanks! And if not, you can keep help me rising that number here!


Work hard!… for what??

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This is supposed to be a desperate face. In case you are doubting.

Hello my beloved readers here we are another day, ready to talk about me.
So I’ve always been a quite motivated and positive person (all thought some people think the contrary because of my strong sense of reality which could be taken as negativity). Even in the darkest situations I’ve been able to take my mind to a better place where it’s always sunny, I think that power is in us, just that not everyone knows how to use.

So as you know it’s been a lot of time since I’m stuck in my parents kitchen looking for a job without any success, and I’ve been dealing with it quite well until the last two, three…¿? months. In that period of time I’ve cried more than in the other 288/9 months of my live, why? because everything I try fails. I put a lot of effort and passion and for what? it seems that for nothing, I spent 4 months working on a short film that wasn’t liked, I was going to start  a travel blog but the trip (which I was dreaming to go on, and had be planning for two months) on which it was going to be going around, fell off yesterday, get to a 100 followers (at least) on my FB art page, not happening (stuck in 99, wanna collaborate?) and a whole other bunch of stuff (getting a job include, but the topic might be getting a bit trite)!

Joining my lack of triumph in the “laboral world” we have to add the lack of human support, and in this I totally exclude my family! (with out them, this would be even worse), but in life someone (at least I) needs various groups of people. We could divide the two basic groups in to family and friends (there is also a third group that involves class/work mates) and ok, I’ve got the family and I’ve got the friends but when you spend two years of your live out (I went to study to another city) of a group of friends that had been together that time when you get back you might feel a bit…out, why? because people change and evolve, but they have done it together so they have their well founded customs, jokes…which you are not familiarized with. And it doesnt matter if you’ve seem them every vacation you went back to town or spoke with them weekly! It’s just not the same, so you try to fit in but you have also changed, and even though they are amazing friends and people, you are just no one of them completely, they will always have a deeper connection between them that the one they will ever have with you.

Then I have my friends from the other city (the one I studied for two years) of course I keep in touch with them and enjoy talking with them but whatsapp conversations are not enough to me, I’m and old-fashion person when it comes to relationships.
But well I suppose distance brings things in to place and as sad as it is we have to deal with it, you must try to keep fighting for relationships you think they are worth it, but as an old friend used to say “Two can’t if one doesn’t want”, and keep going.

So to wrap up this post (which might have seemed a bit disjointed) what I want to say is that I want to go back to my old self, the one that was always happy and cheering up everyone, the one that was starving for new projects and daily adventures, the one that had faith, and as reality and other things are settling down, no matter how “ugly” you know what to deal with and go against it joyful and straightforward, and I everyone says that that in the end everything finds its place.
So time to finish, I’m going to exercise a bit and you know what comes now…
Until next post! (or not)

PS: I this post has no sense, is totally disconnected and is full of mistakes, please forgive me bit I’ve been sailing since yesterday and now that I’m on firm land I totally dizzy as if I were still sailing. It’s something normal after a long period on the sea 🙂

A “To do” list (sort of)



#1 Get a job in whatever
#2 Kiss someone that’s worth the shame
#3 Travel alone
#4 Travel with people (more often I mean)
#5 Master light (in my paintings)
#6 Get to do armstand
#7 Appear in a movie as an extra (preferably a historical one)
#8 Move to my own apartment and decorated as ever I want
#9 Own a closet just for shoes
#10 Open a night club
#11 Sing in a band
#12 Work as a DJ for a while
#13 Be an avid speaker
#14 Learn to surf/kitesurf
#15 Have all the knickers in my drawer made by myself